My definition of Sunshine is that one ray of happiness in your life. One that does not let you down, one that no matter how bad of a day you have had it brings you right back up. As of right now that sunshine is growing stronger than ever. Everytime I see it, it captivates me and makes me feel all warm and fuzzy all over again. That sunshine was missing for about year, it blossemed from tiny dot into a full blown shine. As I sit back and let that sun shine upon one of the most tainted beings, I see it helping. In the beginning I was all about that sun, but with that I think that sun failed to shine upon one of the most important being ever. For now I'm glad it does, once its made the biggest impact on that being I'll step in and let the shine rain back in. It has so much more to grow, for now I'll only watch over it to make sure it's guided in the right way with its being.

In all the darkest of darkest times in this hell of a storm, it decided to grace upon us, as we realized all the times that went by. For that I am glad it is the one thing that gives hope, the one that will only make you smile, the one that you guide on growing bigger.

I believe this being in the ray of sunshine will become closer then ever. I hope that no one will break that force between it. I know one day people will wake up and see that it takes only oneself to realize on what you have missed out on, one day that the hounding will be thrown out and the unconditional love will show. For some it takes that extra boost from the ones we love most to make sure that Sunshine keeps going strong.

One day I dream to overcome night and let that sun shine all the time.

..Taunting..

I believe when most people say or do things they do not see how it reflects upon co-workers, spouses, childeren, family, friends. Have you ever felt like someone said something just to kind of shove it in your face? Or someone made a statement that was meant to be a question for you?

It has gone beyond a point that I can described on how selfish people are these days. I know everyone is entitled to their own opinion and are allowed to say and do what they want but sometimes its like an inner rage of just wanting to look at them and say "wtf", *slap* them and walk away for just being cynical.

When you have something to ask just ASK. Don't go on for weeks making random statements about how much your life sucks or how much you need this or that. If you have the *umph* to oust yourself in a position of begging then have the courage to step up and ask. More respect would come out of a person just straight up asking rather then whining.

To the bragging and shoving, let me brag how OUR boss is taking me to lunch and not you, let me shove it in your face that I got a raise. Last I heard this was suppose to be between you and your boss, not you the co-worker and boss. Coming back to the inner rage of "wtf" and *Slap*. LOL. Got to love people who have nothing better in their life then to try and make you jealous, when in all actuality it is just annoying.

Now in my personal life I have a friend that just bought a house, received the money from the first time home buyers and extra on top of that. Let me just say I am PROUD to call her my friend I am PROUD to stand by her side and be broke, I am PROUD to listen to her gloat about it all, if and when she ever does. What bothers me about this all is she is getting attacked from all angles with the statements, from worst of all a family member. I am only her friend here but I put my two cents in about how they should be proud of her and her start to her long lived life with her family.

Do you let people walk on you the same way? Stand up and be proud for what you have and stand for or need. Don't make statements or remarks that make people loose that much more respect for you.

I dream that one day you will have the courage to prevail.

...Appreciation..

ap·pre·ci·a·tion

(-prsh-shn)
n.
1. Recognition of the quality, value, significance, or magnitude of people and things.
2. A judgment or opinion, especially a favorable one.
3. An expression of gratitude.
4. Awareness or delicate perception, especially of aesthetic qualities or values.
5. A rise in value or price, especially over time.1 word..just a word...but also a action to me that is taken in many many ways.

1. Recognition of the quality, value, significance, or magnitude of people and things.I love the quailty of life, you only make it out to be what you want.

People believe things happen to them just because but heres the thing wake up and realize things happen because they are suppose to because for some reason deep in you, you want it happen. I value everything I have achieved in my life, no not material items, I value the thought of where my life is, and what I will become. Significance, oh boy I hate this word, it is easily over played by many, you believe something is dear and true to your heart but you show no effort to appreciate it. Magnitude, I love the shape, size and beauty of a persons body. Never hate who you are or what you make of yourself because to me you are always beautiful in any way possible. The quality of life makes me value each significant person with the magnitude of the universe!

2. A judgment or opinion, especially a favorable one. A opinion is based off of a judgement to me.

I believe everyone is entitled to believe what you chose to believe weither I agree or it is favorable or not. I get so tired of seeing someone judge someone elses opinion instead of being open to atleast listening. I hate people that always believe they are right. Everyone and I mean everyone is entitled to believe what they want and think what they want, I myself chose not to block out anyone and am willing to sit down for hours on your views and mine.

3. An expression of gratitude.

To educate yourself for the feeling of gratitude means to take nothing for granted, but to always seek out and value the kind that will stand behind the action. Nothing that is done for you is a matter of course. Everything originates in a will for the good, which is directed at you. Train yourself never to put off the word or action for the expression of gratitude. Well enough said by this man.

4. Awareness or delicate perception, especially of aesthetic qualities or values.

I am strong believer in souls, every soul is aware when it is ready to be born, every soul is delicate to the perception of its own mind. Every person is different no two souls are alike, yes, you might have a soul mate but that does not mean it is exactly what you are just male or female. It can be either, it is someone who your soul has known before someone who totally gets you even if you are complete opposites.

5. A rise in value or price, especially over time.

The economy. FUCK YOU. I don't appreciate a god damn thing you have done to my life this past year. I know I said before things only happen to you if you want them to but yes, in ways it has turned out that way but in other ways I feel for those outside of just me that it has changed the way thier life is lived. I see a rise in depression and the value of life dwindling as the price we pay is losing our souls over time you will see. In the end I do appreciate in my own definition all of you who have touched my life, everyone who has came through in times of need, everyone who has shared a good laugh with me, everyone who has taught me what I do not want in life, everyone who has set an example of right or wrong, everyone who is to come, and everyone who is gone, and most of all to my parents for raising me to appreciate each and every one of you as well as myself.

I dream that everyone, one day will appreciate the value of life.

Familia

I was raised very close to my family, strongly believed that family is the most important thing you have and also does reflect upon some decisions or life changes you can make in life. They are always there to support you and will be at your bed-side when your decrepit and rely on someone to take care of you.

I have seen throughout the last couple of years that family to some people is not the same. It is merely just an excuse for someone to pay your bills, someone you can't turn to in times of need. There are familys that don't exist, broken apart, ruled by drugs, or just simply don't care.

Being a firm believer that I will not bring a life (child) into this world until I have found that one true person that know needs me because they love me not loves me because they need me. I want someone who is willing to build a long wonderful life with me to raise OUR kids in. Someone to wake up with on Christmas morning to see OUR child open presents in one location not to. I do not want to have an "every other" Christmas. Not that I would like a perfect family, everyone has their flaws, fights and splits. I would just like a family to call my own till the day I die. Getting that in this modern age is difficult, finding someone who cares about family as much or wants the same things is impossible to find.

There are many types of familys I have experienced. For instance, my family, very caring strong built, we always have our family dinners, meet up for birthdays and other holidays. Split familys, no matter what a child always ventures to one side the mother or father. I have seen alot of these in recent times, consider me old school or not but once married thats it. If you as a parent believe a divorce will not ruin your childs life you are wrong, deciding which parent you want to live with or having no say in it is the worst possible thing you can do to a child. Granted, sometimes the step-father becomes more of a father then the actual one. I have witnessed a lesbian family, with the father still involved, I believe it can work but to have your child understand that later in life is probably one of your hardest task possible. A bar family, people who have their family dinners and gatherings at bar, the only place you see your childeren is at a bar a sit down family dinner does not exist, but those parents still love their childeren just as much, but from what I've seen they love the bar people that much too it will tear your child up young or old when they see more effort of motherhood put into people who will not care for you when your old.

If you are not willing to work to have a family and do whatever it takes to make it worth then what's life worth? You might have material items to call your own, or plenty of girlfriends, but in the end who will be by your bedside when you go? Think twice before you cancel a dinner with your family to go get drunk or laid. I have a dream and that dream is in the future to have a family to call my own. ;D